Painting's Creating, And I'm Just Erasing..

ready to face college!

2005-03-14T08:11:18Z

a minute ago while listening to random not-particularly-happy music whilest getting ready for college i found a file that vince sent me a while ago, "argues with kid". i believe the episode was mitchell, if i remember rightly. it had me rolling all over the floor in fits of giggles! that was some argument.. XD

chibi!

2005-01-23T23:33:24Z

ive forgotten how to post a picture in here. again. so ill just do this

http://www.deviantart.com/view/14356344/

and hope maybe some people will go look. hopefully it'll annoy the people who dont go and look in some way.

interesting...

2004-06-12T12:39:13Z

this is very interesting.

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-10-02T18:30:00

2003-10-02T17:30:57Z

omgomgomg! gueeeess what? we're getting a big ol' widescreen tv this weekend (took long enuf!) n 2 dvd players, one normal one n one dvd recorder thats compatible with american dvds! u know what that means? oooohhh yes! cd japan are gna be hearing a lot from me! aaiiiiieeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! n i found some kittie ears in ze attic today, theyre fwuffy n kiyute! aaaiiieeewaaaa!! =^_^=

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-10-02T08:27:00

2003-10-02T07:27:24Z

meheheeeewww....................... heaaadache.................. dying..................... mm tea!

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-30T18:06:00

2003-09-30T17:10:32Z

im all curayzee with nothing to doo! aaaaiiiieeeee! just spent a gd 2 hours doing that tingy on vince's profile where u put in yr user name n the a random one.. i sent out a few emails too (they reeked of "help me im desperate i have no friends!" n i doubt ill heer from ne of em ¬_¬)

nehoo, where was i? oh yes, COKE-A-MA-COLA! *_*

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-29T07:35:00

2003-09-29T06:37:15Z

i realised recently that i never write nething gd about maki in here, i just complain, n its true i dont, n i shud write more gd stuff here ^_^

well, sunday was great.. infact, the entire weekend was great.. cept perhaps friday. n cept a yesterday evenin when i poured half a friggin kettle full of hot water on my hand cuz my dad didnt want tap water in his tea. *sigh*..

went to the cinema once maki got to mine on sat, twas great, we need to do that more often seeing as it was one of the first things we did together, as friends (red dragon) and as a couple (road to perdition). then sunday.. sunday was so kewl! all i did was sit around all day n watch cartoons (an hour of spongebob n an hour of the firly odd parents! *contented squeal*) but it was like one of the best days ive had fer ages.. twas such a relaxed atmosphere, like we were livin together ^_^ cept he stole my wallet _ hehehe love yooouuuusss kittymuffin *evil chibi laughter*

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-27T15:57:00

2003-09-27T14:59:38Z

aww.. *sniffle* tony rules ^_^

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-27T14:39:00

2003-09-27T13:41:21Z

"i lose my way, no one cares... the words i say, no one hears... my life it seems, is a world of dreams..."

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-27T12:11:00

2003-09-27T11:24:06Z

i hate thinking, but recently its all ive been doing.

dammit im so sleepy i feel drugged...

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-26T16:30:00

2003-09-26T15:34:18Z

ive cheered up a little now. i tried drawing a pic of chise with her wings after i posted my last post n binned it cuz it sucked. i cant draw when im upset! or angry for that matter.. nehoo, i went n had some coke, watched some haibane renmei n i had cheered up by then ^_^ so i came back n drew a kewl pic of NieA in her widdle space ship that she makes in the first ep (the one that is run on electricity n blows up *giggles*)

i also fed kitty so he's a happy widdle bunny now too *pats kitty's head*

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-26T13:03:00

2003-09-26T12:29:36Z

kitty & i have sunk into a state of upset-ness.. why do i kep denying myself the truth: that im just another quiet ugly selfish girl who shouldnt say another word to neone, i shud curl up inna corner with kitty n never come out.. cept to feed kitty ^_^ i need to think things over, decide how i feel about everything.. of all the bad things i keep thinking of maki he hasta put up with an awful lot from me.. like my terrible unsociable personality.. i told him i was unwell last night so i wouldnt hafta go to ad lib, but i could have gone, i was well enuf, i had been to college nehoo.. i felt bad after liying to him, after all, he did come n see me on tuesday, he cycled here n everything.. im constantly getting the feeling that im no good for him.. but then i also feel betrayed by him in some ways too.. i cant believe very much of what he says.. after all on his journal he sed to his old love interest lucy that he would probably have the occasional girlfriend but that he'd never give up on her.. if he says that wasnt, or isnt true then how can i believe that he'd never give up on me? i know i shouldnt be thinking like this n that i should take his marriage proposal as a commitment sign, but i cant.. after all, people these days get divorced as easily as they get married.. but then again do i really wana be tied down like that? i mean, im entering a huge industry now through college, i am no longer the general public but a profesional musician sed spoons to me yesterday.. im gna meet so many new ppl.. *sigh* i just dont know what to do about it.. about nething.. i think overall he'd be better without me, n perhaps he will be without me, perhaps i wont always just be here for him to turn to whenever he feels like it.. perhaps i wont.. but these are only whats whizzing around inside my head, possibly put there by my silly parents rowing and fighting and splitting up n blaming me for it.. however theyre only thoughts.. n i dont trust my thoughts.. *huggles kitty wistfully* atleast i have kitty..

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-25T17:28:00

2003-09-25T16:40:17Z

"Men have developed a mode of communication based upon varying applications of the two-word answer: all right ("i am extremely happy"), all right ("what am i, homosexual?") and all right ("help me, i am in acute emotional pain").

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Hair companies have responded to this new surge in interest by tarting up the fragrance in gels, while tarting it down in sprays, as this is what menfolk favour. This leads naturally to the subject of product abuse or what is known as the "cake effect" in which men will plaster a great unworked gloop into the middle of their scalps n then wonder why they look like peg dolls."

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-25T17:01:00

2003-09-25T16:04:39Z

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-25T08:31:00

2003-09-25T07:40:02Z

hmm, im still cheerful this morning, whats wrong with me?? all this shit is happening to me, n to others, n im cheerful?? its shameful. but i cant help it! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! perhaps kitty's helped me *strokes kittys head* he seems to have that effect on me, he was the one hu kept me company alll day yesterday cuz vince gave him to me in tha morning n i was cheerful last night too! sanku kitteh *huggles kitty*

NEKOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-24T12:38:00

2003-09-24T11:44:41Z

ugh, i was lookin fer sites about anime kittehs (cuz they are so kiyute!) n came across this site of anime pussies (aw c'mon, i was bound to ¬_¬) n there was this comic being advertised about anime rape. "EXTREME, FORCED, SEX!" it advertised. rape is not right, in real life, in comic form, newhere! gawd im pissed off right now.

Nowhere Man ~ The Beatles

2003-09-24T10:17:59Z

He's a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land,
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody.

Doesn't have a point of view,
Knows not where he is going to,
Isn't he a bit like you and me?

Nowhere man, please listen, you don't know
What you're missing,
Nowhere man, the world is at your command.

He's as blind as he can be,
Just sees what he wants to see,
Nowhere man can you see me at all?

Nowhere man, don't worry,
Take your time, don't hurry,
Leave it all till somebody else lends you a hand.

Doesn't have a point of view,
Knows not where he is going to,
Isn't he a bit like you and me?

Nowhere man, please listen, you don't know
What you're missing,
Nowhere man, the world is at your command.

He's a real nowhere man,
Sitting in his nowhere land,
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody.

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-23T22:23:00

2003-09-23T21:30:24Z

gah. cold.....consuming........weak........body...................

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-22T10:05:00

2003-09-22T09:29:36Z

heh just realised im an amazingly dumb bunny.. last night vince disappered fer like a little while n came bak n sed what i thort was that he was wishing someone (forgive my bad memory) happy birthday.. but im getting a sneaking suspicion that it was vince's birthday.. forgive my idiocy if that is the case and

>^_^<
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
>^_^<

im off college again, my cold went from bad to worse last night.. they'll prolly make me go back tomorrow when they find out i spent the whole day on the comp tho.. ¬_¬ i did my homework for today n everything. n im hoping my silly mother remembered to call the office.. >_< im fed up of being ill, i know most ppl wud love the time off, n i do (hehe) but i cant stand being bed-sick all day like i was yesterday, that just frustrated me. i mean, what kinda person gets rid of one cold n then gets another one within a week? n my stupid stomach pains arent going away, even tho im trying to sleep n eat more n stuff.. -_-

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-21T22:01:00

2003-09-21T21:10:15Z

bah, got a stinkin cold, no energy whatsoever (im so exhausted after my day of non-stop sleeping!) n i hafta carry bloody heavy bass around all day n apparently its gna rain. perfect! *huffle*

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-19T20:17:00

2003-09-19T19:19:52Z

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! we might be playing some soundtracks in my orchestra for the summer concert next year!! phill sed he has the score for the jurassic park theme in his office right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happyness!!!!!!! *squeals*

random post

2003-09-19T13:58:59Z

~What are your favorite girls names?
1.Sky
2.Isobel
3.River
~What are your favorite boy names?
1.Pilgrim
2.Vincent
3.Paddy
~What do you want to die of? being struck by lightning while playing my bass guitar outside in the rain
~Whats in your room? my bass, loads of scrap paper with my sketches on, n my beloved lion king cell

well, that quiz had about 100 questions but i deleated most of em hehe. im not THAT bored!

linknakedinmilk @ 2003-09-19T12:08:00

2003-09-19T11:31:52Z

im so sweepy, oh so sweepy, im so sweepy, n sweepy, n tired! ^_^;

tom newman sure loves his oboes, ive noticed. they played one of the themes in the shawshank redemption too.. in "so was red" i tinky. the green mile, if i remember correctly, was mostly strings tho, and the road to perdition was very reminiscent of the green mile. and the horse whisperer was similar in some ways to the shawshank redemption.
now, meet joe black has no resemblence to any of these other scores (in my opinion). i can usually tell a newman score a mile away (as i did when i saw the road to perdition with maki) but meet joe black baffled me. i thought one of the main themes ("whisper of a thrill", "served its purpose", "someone else") was an actual classical piece thrown into the score (as composers do from time to time) but it was all original music, all by newman. having bought the ost and listened to it i can distinctly tell that its newmans work, but its also different, different enough to make me believe it was another composer. its good that he's bin tweeking his styles, becoming different in ways and that i still adore his music.. ^_^

confidence booster from andy ^_^

2003-09-18T21:27:58Z

finger bleedin' good says:
ur incredible - u bounce bak from everything - it jst seems 2make u even harder

finger bleedin' good says:
mebbe tis y ur so small - kinda compacted into super-hard stuff?

Fly Beyond Your Wildest Dreams.

2003-09-18T20:40:44Z

In a soil thick with snails and rich grease
I've longed to dig myself a good deep grave
There to streatch my old bones at ease
And sleep in oblivion.